Last night was an interesting night.. i dont remember half of the things i did but i remember being very sick and going over to some gurls house.. from what other tell me i took a few anti depresent pills and i was fucked up.. last night i couldnt sleep i, i couldnt find a posistion to get comfortable.. and i kept twitching i was soo hiper..my friend jess was there and she took me into the bathroom..held my hair back while i sat there pukeing..i fell asleep in the bathroom so she picked me up put me on the couch and fed me some saltine crackers...im so happy i have her in my life i dont know what i would do without her..she stayed up with me the whole night and she didnt have to but she did anyways because she cares about me, i need more friends like that, i dont know who to trust ne more

fote called me this morning and i explained to him what happened and he said he'll e over in a few minutes..fotes like my big brother hes always been there for me, i told him i was sick and he worrys. if i only had jess and nikolas in my life i wouldnt mind it because they seem to be the only two i need right now..

nikolas fote and jessica lanfair i love you guys sooo much!

current mood: lazy

 wow i havent updated this shit for a while..basically because its all drama, immature people comment on it and say shit to you but its funny cause they never seem to do what they say they're going to do and they never say that shit to your face.

So this is whats gone on so far since ive updated.. on june 18 the last day of school i meet ryan baldwin near the bridge smoked a cig and he walked me home..we were talking about so much so we went through the woods at greely park..then we started to talk about relationships and then we started going out..it didnt last for too long because hes an idiot..he wrote me an email the other day saying how hes sorry he hhurt me bla bla bla if u wanna go out then i will..but i dont think thats gonna happen

fourth of july was some crazy shit though, i was chillin wit cara carisa and sammie and we all went to holmen to watch fireworks with carisas family, nick and dave and tom were also there. tom was with his gurlfriend shes soo cute ive chilled with her before it was so funny we just looked at each other and started hugging each other..shes so much better then kasey and tom loves her so thats good..ne ways after this we went to a party and we saw some brittish kid drinking out of a fuckin bucket it was mad funny..then the cops came and there was only like five kids there that were under 21 so we all went into a room..and when we came out trever and some kid were out there and they had 2 kegs and asked if we wanted to go to their apartment..so we did and i got trashed, i didnt really know what was going on and i almost did shit with some 25 year old..thank god my cousin was therer though..

alright..and since then ive done nothing really, just smoked a little weed here and there. ive been chillin with my cousin cara and carisa alot. the other night we went to some kids house and smoked a blunt, then tommy and nick and steve came over so we went to nicks to watch them breakdance..

ive sick of typing but basically ive been smokeing alot..and am i going to quick ne time soon? naw if u have a problem with it thats your oppinion i dont wanna hear it